There are a lot of narratives I wanted to change once I got pregnant. This picture here is so special to me because here I am with the woman who raised me while I carry the young woman I’m about to raise. My mom was a single parent and worked her butt off to see that my siblings and I had all that we needed and wanted so naturally my Oma was around a lot. We grew up thicker than thieves and it was no family secret that we shared a very special bond and well, I was her favourite. I love that she selflessly took on such a huge role but to be honest I often longed for my mom and grew up with some “abandonment issues”. I wanted to understand that my mom needed to work and provide but my heart wanted what it wanted and that was a present mom.
So here I am carrying the next generation and I’m thinking of all the things I wanted and all the things I wanna give to my angel girl and all that I can think of is how much I wanna give her my time and my presence. I knew that I was going to raise Londyn and while her village is AMAZING I also know that when all is said and done, I’m the CHIEF of that village and I won’t be far. In order to raise her how I see fit there will be one voice, one opinion and one person calling the shots and that’s ME🙋🏾♀.
I craved consistency but being raised by a few hands made that difficult, today I have to opportunity to do and be different for my own. I will be with her every step of the way throughout her life, I’ll be there for her firsts, her lasts and her only’s. I’ll be there on school trips and at bedtime as well, when it’s convenient and ESPECIALLY when it’s not. This is my girl and when all is said and done and my time “raising” her comes to an end I want her to always say that mommy was there.
